Courage, Cults and Lack of Egregious Behavoir
It is not uncommon for skinny nerdy timid boys (speaking of myself in the middle school to early high school days) to identify as outsiders. They may be white and male and privileged, but the collection of other factors lead one to outsider feelings ... maybe even left-out-feelings. These things are somewhat universal when one finally finds a way to talk to others ... but sometimes that skill is hard learned. And one can go on identifying in isolation or one's own outsiderness. In college, I started over, grew long hair, hung out with the cool kids who liked punk music (hardcore at the time) and even had my first girlfriend. Nonetheless, I felt alien among the particular kind of Christian liberal arts college I went to. Alien may not be right, it always felt like God didn't grant me the same number of limbs as my fellow students, or even that I was missing one or two senses. Worse because it was God purposely withheld it from me. Practically it meant that even though I was ...